Love Song For No One

This song shows my thoughts on my love life right now. Even though this song is kinda depressing, my life couldn't get much better.
I have created yet ANOTHER blog. The link is located to the right. Click on "My Poetry." This blog is where I post poetry that I have written. I want you all to visit and make some comments. Even though all negative comments will be disregarded because I don't care about your opinions.
Thanks,
Mr. Blatant

staying home alone on a Friday
flat on the floor looking back
on old love
or lack thereof

after all the crushes have faded
and all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
so tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here

searching all my days to find you
not sure what I'm looking for
I'll know where
when I see you

until then I'll hide in my bedroom
just staying up all night just to write
a love song
for no one

I'm tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
so tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
could I have missed my chance and watched you walk away

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
could I have missed my chance and watched you walk away

I'm tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
so tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here

you'll be so good
you'll be so good for me
I know you'll be so good
for me
for me

Would you like my tasty weiners?

Today, after school, Chase, Steph, and Louisa came over to my house for lunch. We had beans, ravioli, and hot dogs. These hotdogs were natural casing weiners. They had a red casing on the outside. Louisa was complaining about how they looked, but she ended up liking it.
*Fast Forward to after work*
After work, I met Chase at the mall. He hadn't eaten yet, so he picked up some food at Taco Johns in the food court. This is how the conversation went:
Me: ...and Louisa was bitching about the color of my weiner.
Girl glances backwards surprised at what she heard
Me: She knows it tasted good, she can't deny it.
Girl begins to grin and tries not to laugh as Chase and I realize she heard only part of the conversation and begin to laugh out loud.
I tell you what, it was the funniest thing ever. Anyway, I am tired. Tomorrow is the last day of school! YAY for summertime!
P.S. MY BLOG IS OFFICIALLY ONE YEAR OLD NOW! HUZZAH!

Mary Katherine, just because she makes me smile. 

*Flashback* 

Stephanie and Amber, my two bestest girlie friends ever. 

Geoff, one of my bestest buddies ever, and I on the Chanhassen trip. Don't mind Geoff, he's just high.  

Me, Geoff, Stephanie, and Chasetifer at the Mall of America on our Concert Choir Trip 

Erasing memories

Well, just now I did a very bold thing. I deleted my private blog. I have been typing in my private blog for a long time, and I wrote a lot of things in there, and I continually went back and read them. I would get pissed off every time I read it. So, I decided to get rid of those memories. I won't remember the times when I was extremely happy, and I won't remember the times when I was completely crushed and depressed. I don't want to remember them. They are being erased from my life forever, and I don't care. Well...that's all I guess.

Hello

I got this new cool program called Hello. I can upload pictures to it, and it automatically puts the pics in my blog. It's really nifty. Well, today I woke up to find out I didn't have much time to get ready for church. I got into the shower, and found out that my dad left without me. I got out and just got dressed. I would have driven to church, but my car is still at Amber's house. Oh well. I am waiting for Geoffrey to call me so we can go over to Katie's house. We were invited over there to eat supper. Yummy. Well, I just found out that Craig will be over to my house soon. I must depart. P.S. I updated my quotation blog again. Check it out.

Cresta and I at prom. Don't we look bitchin'? 

Empty heart, empty eyes

Well, Monday night was Drammies. It was a fun night. We performed "Mr. Flatulence" and it went well. We also performed "Look at Us." It went well also. Drammies was a night filled with tons of randomness. It was friggin' hilarious nonetheless. Anyway, I didn't cry until I saw the video of Mr. Pope in the hospital. It made me weep seeing the person I look up to as someone I wish I could be like when I am older in the hospital. He looked weak. Well, not all heros have to be strong. Senior moments emptied my eyes and emptied my heart of all feeling. I am going to miss the seniors although I know they will be moving on with their lives, trying to fulfill their goal of being like their hero. Time moves on. I am going to be updating my quotation blog and trying to make it look better. Check it out, and damn it, visit it and post comments, or I'll chop off your fingers and feed them to...Heather Burch.

Indulge yourself

Wow. Lately, I have been so happy, I could cry. I have been hanging out with Craig. I realized he is a wonderful guy. I love hanging out with him, he is so much fun. Not to mention, my parents love him. Anytime I come home late I just say, "I was with Craig," and I get off, punishment-free. Last night was the best night of my life. I am anticipating the summer. Three simple words are going to make this summer so much better: "I'm with Craig." Thanks a lot Craig, you're a pal. Well, this week is going to be a busy one. Monday: Drammies Tuesday: Spring Fling Chorus Concert (gag me) Wednesday: Hanging out with Craig and Jenny (probably) Thursday: Fine Arts Awards Banquet and Chicken Dinner Friday: Taste of Suite
As you can see, this is going to be a busy, yet fun week. I won't be able to hang out with the do-gooders as much. OOOOHHHH! I forgot a very important event of the week. On Thursday, we will be posting a coffee shop review of a certain coffee shop. You will want to get a hold of a copy of this one. YAY! *smiles* (OH no, I just said "*smiles*." Please shoot me before I get as annoying as....) Anyway, I am going to get going now. I need to go to bed. I have 7AM rehearsal tomorrow. Talk to you later. Lots of love, and don't forget....Indulge yourself.

School

I have found that school isn't really important to me right now. Especially since it is the end of the school year. I don't like thinking this, but I do. Even show choir, my favorite time of the day, is getting old. I am ready for summer.
I have noticed that not many people are reading my quote blog. READ IT AND COMMENT ON IT! I like reading your comments. Click ME!
Here's a poem that I thought you would like. Note to Jacob: This is the poem I was telling you about.
Flamingo Rising

In time you learn
that sometimes
you have to let other people
save you from yourself
and that everything isn't your fault.

In time you learn
to forgive yourself
and finally admit
it was an accident.
You did all you can.

In time you learn
that children grow up
and buildings fall down
that sunflowers grow tall
but die by winter's chill.

In time you learn
that each day you live
has a purpose
and some sort of meaning
and that life is a gift
that shouldn't
be taken for granted.

In time you learn
that though you may fail
you can always try again
and that only you
can make your dreams a reality.

In time you learn
it's the people you love
not the people you know
who really matter.

And though you may part
there's always tomorrow

In time you learn
to step forth
and admit that you were wrong
and accept your faults
and try to improve.

In time you learn
that you are loved
and though grief has come
you will rise
and overcome
your greates fears
and love again.

Playing for the World

Tonight was once again a night of reigning for the "Do-Gooders." In case you don't know what the "Do-Gooders" are, they are a group composed up of mainly Craig, Geoff, and I. As a part of this group, we travel around Sioux Falls doing things to make people laugh, smile, or just be happy while thinking about their childhood.
Tonight was a memorable night for us "do-gooders." We drove and picked lilacs at some house. They won't miss them. We then proceeded to Mrs. Votaw's house to give her some flowers, but she wasn't home. We, then, decided to go to Mrs. Benz's house to give her some flowers. As we passed over I-29 on 26th Street, we saw a man standing by the road playing guitar. We could tell he had a sign on, but we couldn't read it. We quickly made a U-turn and stopped while Geoff gave him some lilacs and told him to have a nice day. As we proceeded onwards towards Mrs. Benz's home, we decided that we needed to give him more than flowers. We would give him some Jellybeans that Craig had in his car. We turned around and gave him some Jellybeans. We then found out what his sign said. It read: Everbody needs help sometimes. I am trying to go home. Arriving at Mrs. Benz's house, we gave her some flowers and had a nice conversation about life in general. Mrs. Benz is a nice lady and a good teacher. She ranks up there with Mrs. Votaw and Mr. Pope. We told Mrs. Benz about our plan to stop and talk to the mysterious guitar player and give him a ride to wherever he needed. She told us to be careful and we promised we would. Parking by the guitarist, we got out and walked up to him. We started talking to him, and we asked him where home was. He said he was from Missouri. He said he was in San Diego and ran out of money on the way home from there. He was playing for gas money. I asked him how long he had been away from home, and he replied by saying, "Six months." He said he was in San Diego because he quit college in Missouri because it wasn't working for him. He said he just left and went to San Diego with his guitar and played there for a while. He played in a coffeeshop in order to make some money. He decided to come back home, but ran out of money. It makes me think, how can someone just leave their home in order to go see the world and play guitar? I wonder what would motivate someone to do something like that?
Well, after talking with him, Craig, Geoff, and I went to Falls Park to think. We climbed around on the rocks and walked around on the railroad tracks to a bike path. We talked a lot on the way, and just had an all-around good time. I hope to enjoy many other times like that. After I got home, instead of lying to my parents and telling them that I had worked, I told them the truth and didn't get into trouble. I was very pleased. My parents might understand life a little. I had a nice conversation with Craig, and he gave me some good advice. I am going to listen to him since he hasn't lead me astray yet. Well, I better get going. Lots of love all around.

Revelation on Theater

Sitting here reading my blog, I have decided to start writing my own play. It's going to be something interesting for me. Oh well, it will be a working project. Don't ask to be in it, I am not modeling the characters after anyone. Sorry. Lots of love.

Revamping of the Blog

Today I logged on to Blogger in order to update my blog as usual, but was happily surprised to see that they revamped the site. I was pleased to be able to rid myself from the old comments service to use the built-in comments. Also, I have decided to be like everyone else and add the post title to the blog. This was done for YOU, my readers so you can easily find the post in the Previous posts section located at the right side of the blog. Anywho, Geoff, Craig, Stephanie D., Chase, and AJ went to Shalom Ethiopian Coffeehouse, and had quite the experience. I am not going to say much about it now, but I will say more about it in the newspaper article on Wednesday. Speaking of which, I need to go type that up now. I will talk with you later. Lots of love.

Well, today was officially the longest shift I have worked in a long time. I was scheduled to work 10-6, but I ended up staying until after 7. OH well, more money. I trained Geoff in at casual dining. I am sure he did fine. After work, I went to the mall with Chase. He bought a present for his mommy. I helped him pick it out. We then went to Walmart so he could buy some clothes hangers. After that, we went to Cool Beans, and we sat down and played a game of chess. I won. Yay! I never win! Anyway, I work tomorrow 1-9, and it will suck because I don't want to work. OH well, I guess I don't have a choice. Well I am tired I am going to do a few more things online, and then I am going to bed. Night, and lots of love.

Well, tonight was fun. In fact, the last couple days have been fun. I have been carefree and just lived my life and enjoyed it. I have made a lot of changes in my life recently, and am happy to say that I am enjoying life more than I ever have. I've been doing a lot of sitting around and having philosophical discussions with Craig or other friends, and I am trying to get my life into order and weed out the bad things from the good things. This will (hopefully) make next year much smoother. My mom and I have been talking about senior pictures already (wow). It seems as if just yesterday was my first day at Roosevelt. My...how time passes. My only regret: Not joining theatre earlier. I cry sometimes thinking about how much opportunity I missed by not being involved in theatre. OH well, I can't dwell on the past, but I must push into the future. Lots of love.

Well, I am now online, and I am finding that absolutely no one else is on. I am kinda bored. But, I have kept myself busy by watching the "Friends" finale. It was pretty good. I almost felt like crying because I thought about how I will have to say goodbye to a bunch of people this year too. But, I can't cry now. (That's what Drammies are for.) I may act a little strange as the end of the year comes closer, but don't worry, I'll be OK. I just have to get over the fact that some of the most important people in my life will be going away, each taking their own separate paths. Even though our paths may cross in the future, they will never be as near to me as they have been for the past years. I am done talking about that for now. I updated my quotations blog today, and there is a wide variety of quotes. I suggest you check the site out.

Well, tomorrow is the AP History test...aka...Doomsday. I am pretty sure I am going to fail. I don't care either. And guess what!?! I found out that AP World History has a DBQ (Document Based Question) on that test too! Damn it! Oh well, I think World History will be much more entertaining. Anyway, I don't feel like updating this blog right now, but I will be updating my quote blog. Here it is: My Quote Blog

Well, today was the day of the AP Lit. and Comp. test. I arrived at Holy Cross at 7:20ish, and we went in, and waited for the test to start. After much confusion and stress on Dr. Hansen's part, she began to read the general instructions. Then, at 7:50, Ashley Blake, the drama queen strolled in. She made a huge deal that she had mono, and needed to be near the bathrooms. I can't stand her. She flips out about every little thing! *cough*Whiny bitch*cough* Well, after the test, which wasn't that bad, we went to Applebee's to eat. Steph E. and Amber had to sit at a different table, which was sad, but it was okay, I am sure they had fun. If not, then they are too picky. Anyway, after eating the yummy food, we went back to the school, and we had totally skipped concert choir. I guess I tied with some people for Concert Choir officer. Well, that's cool. I definitely have some suggestions to make for next year. I have high views to promote unitedy in the choir. Anyway, I am getting off topic again. The last two periods of the day were quite boring. I didn't pay attention at all. After school, Geoff, Steph D., Melissa, and Kurt went driving around to HyVee, and then we went to Renner. We went to see Pam out there, and then we ended up swinging on the swingset at the school. We then drove back into Sioux Falls, and we went to our separate housese which brings me here, sitting and talking to Maren and Jessica. Now, I am tired. I am going to go. Lots of love.

First Anniversary of My Blog: The Life of a Geek!
Yay! I have had this blog for a year. Well, officially not until the 25th, but I don't care. I now have a year's worth of archives! I am so excited. I have been looking forward to this month. And now, it is here. I have decided that I am going to rename my blog this year. It is now going to be: The Truth, According to Me. Yes, that shall be it. Anyway, now I will go back to talking about my day.
Well, I worked in casual dining 1-9 today. It was the busiest day I have ever seen. We had to bring 4 tables down from the breakroom because we ran out of room for the customers. Those tables are damn heavy! Then, I had to take them back upstairs, which was even worse since it is going upstairs. Well, now I am at home, and procrastinating going to bed. But, since I have the AP Lit. and Comp. test tomorrow, I really should go to bed. My knee hurts right now. I bruised it while helping Chase move yesterday. It's okay Chase, I won't sue. LOL Well, lots of love!