Hello everyone. I know I havent' updated since....forever, so I will do it for you all now. First off, I would like to say that I got 5 new sweaters, and new frames for my glasses, and I have to say that I look bitchin'. I am going to be working a lot of hours over Christmas break, so it may be hard for you to get a hold of me so we can do something. I am even working on Christmas Eve. Oh well, I could use the money. I really can't think of a single thing to do. I am in a really good mood today. If I see any of you today, I may just kiss you. (Seriously) A great big one on the cheek. Don't ask why I am in a good mood, because I have no clue. Well, I worked 7AM-1PM today, and then I left and came home. I opened up a Christmas card and saw a check for $25 in it. Thanks Donna! So, I went to HyVee and bought myself some chinese, and then I bought some green tea, and a Coke, and went to the gas station to fill up my car. I want to do something tonight, and if you do, call me. Chase, Geoff, and I want to do something. They are gonna call me when they get off work. Talk to you later, and remember: If I see you, you are getting a kiss on the cheek or the biggest hug ever. LOL Love you all.

Hello everyone. The madrigal dinner is now over. YAY! Now, we only have 2 more showings of "Harvey." And before I get too far, I have to say, I love being "complemented." tee hee hee I got two new sweaters the other day. I love em. Lately there has been some drama between some of my friends, and I have been praying for it to be over. I am sure it will all turn out fine. Last night was the cast party for Harvey, and it was so much fun. Joyce Newcomb had the party at her house. I played a weird British game called "HuggerMugger." We preferred to refer to it as "Hug your Mother." Anyway, we had a lot of fun. After I decided I was tired of "HuggerMugger," I went upstairs, and did some stuff with Katie Wieland, Brittany Neiles, Audrey Anderson, and Steph Tschetter. We did some dancing. We showed Katie Wieland the show choir version of "Footloose." Then, we remembered how I made a fool of myselft at the district tour by getting onto my knees when i wasn't supposed to. LOL Then, I watched Steph and Katie do their choreography for the talent/no-talent show. At about 1:35, I took Audrey Anderson to Roosevelt so that she could get her car and go home. I went home, and then I proceeded to talk to Lizzie online while I did absolutely nothing. I went to bed at 20 mins. to 4. I woke up at 11, and got ready to go to my grandparent's house. Now I am typing this. Well, I better get going. I need to do some stuff to get ready yet. Bye, love ya'll.

Yeah, last night was the Madrigal Dinner. It went well. Except for the dyslexic page. (ME) There were a lot of people there. Some people even went so far as to say that it was the best madrigal dinner we have done. That's really saying a lot, considering last years rocked. I guess it is possible. For one thing, the serving was much quicker than last year. It seems that, this year, the people in the kitchen have their crap together. Anyway, about this entire week.... It has been the busiest week of my life. I have had play practice everyday from 3-6, and then after that I go to Memorial to have madrigal practice from 6-10. It has been one hell of a week. I had to record some songs with me singing on them. And then Mr. Pope decided that he didn't like one of the songs I picked, so I have to do another one.....Chase? Tonight is the final Madrigal Dinner performance. I hope things go well tonight. I am sure they will. Anyway, after the dinner last night, I went over to Chad's house to meet Lizzie there. And after talking for a while outside in the cold, we decided to go to Barnes and Noble. Well, we got there and just looked at a few things, and then we talked. I asked Mary Katherine to figure out how I should cut my hair for the appointment I just got back from. She gave me her suggestion, and I used it, but I don't' think that it looks like she wanted it. But, I did get it cut, and now it is finally at a manageable length. I have play practice at 10 this morning, and then I go straight to madrigal practice from there. It is gonna be a hella busy day. Well, I better get going, I need to go figure out what I am going to take to eat. I love you all, especially my complimenter. LOL

Well, I am really bored. Tomorrow I decided I am going to try to get a haircut appointment. I hope I can get one, because I am tired of long hair. Tomorrow is payday, which is very good. I am going Christmas shopping with Weeza tomorrow. (She is going to help me pick out things for the ladies on my shopping list.) I really hope I can find everything. I am not too keen about the idea of having to travel on the busiest shopping day of the year. The things I'll do to save money. If you are reading this, don't expect anything big. I am very poor. Well, I will update later. I love ya'll.

Well, here I am, bored, and I am gonna post in my blog. Nothing interesting happens when I post in my blog when I am bored. Lately I have been thinking about a lot of things. I thought I may have just been crazy, but I got a good night's sleep, and things are much clearer now. I now have a defined state of mind. I know all of this is vague, but I don't care. I now know that I have been trying to force something to become more than it already is, but it isn't possible. Only time can make it stronger. Also, I have realized that something in my life is right for me, and nothign can change it. It tells me that NOTHING is going to stop it. It was meant to be, and God is making it stay strong. I am sorry if I am confusing you. If you ask, I MAY tell you about it, but I probably wont because this isn't something I tell everyone. If I don't tell you, don't feel hurt. You can find out in due time. Just give me some support until the time is right for you to know.

I hope everyone is well. I decided to post in my blog again. I know, I usually only do it once a month lately, but I have so much to talk about. LOL Well, play is going well. I am doing much for the props department, but Katie Jo decided to show up today. She will probably get credit for everything I have done, but who cares. That's politics for ya. Today began our Thanksgiving break. (Which is why I am up so late.) It snowed here, and it sucks. I just realized how much I hate winter. Lately, I have realized a lot of things, but I wont bore you with all the details. Tomorrow, I am working 4-8 for Julie Dieltz. I don't like going to work, but I have to save up money for various things. Just recently, I have realized how close my friendships with certain people really are. This has changed the misconceptions I have had about that department. I really have depended on all my friends, and if you are reading this, (you know who you are) I would just like to say that I love you so much, and you mean the world to me. I know it is going to kind of sound like a suicide letter, but for once in my life, I am extremely happy. I have great friends, and things seem to be starting to fall together. All except for the topic of my future. Where do I go to college? What should I do? Do I really want to part with my friends after high school? That part really confuses me, and if anyone has any advice or suggestions or would like to talk to me, that would be most welcome. Heck, we'll have coffee and make it formal. Thanks everyone. I love you.

Alright, I have been told by multiple people that I need to update my blog. My life has been probably the best it has been in a long time, and the most hectic it has been in a long time. Let me explain: It seems that I have finally met the perfect girl. She is wonderful, and I am going to the winter formal with her. You know who you are. I love ya! Harvey is the winter show, and I am a Production Assistant. Not only am I just a PA, I am an old, singing, opera lady. I sing "I'm Called Sweet Buttercup." It is going to be funny. Today at rehearsal, the head of props, Katie Jo, didn't show up. She was supposedly out "buying props." I don't think so. Anyway, Ebony and I are pretty much the head of props. I think it is fun. I would be willing to do it for many other shows. I love it. Anyway, there is going to be someone missing from my life for an entire week. I am sure she will be enjoying herself. All I can do is wait. Well, I have madrigal rehearsal tomorrow. I better get some sleep. I love you all.

Last night was the Little Shop of Horrors cast party. It was at Audrey Anderson's house. After strike, we went over there, and there were a lot of ppl there. Her dad had a bonfire, and fireworks. At around 2ish, we left Audrey's house, and went over to Chase's house. We sat at Chase's house, and after being scared half-to-death, we just sat around and talked about scary movies, and our nightmares. (pretty much everything that scares me.) I left Chase's house a little after six in the morning. It was uber-fun. When I got home, I left a note for my parents, and then I went to bed. I woke up around four. When I woke up, I started doing laundry and did homework. Geoff called, and wondered if I was going to go to bell choir with him. I had everything done, and my mom told me I couldn't go. She told me that I have been gone enough. What the hell am I going to do at home? There is nothing to do! I am bored. I am just gonna go to homestarrunner.com. That always entertains me. Talk at you later! Love you guys.

Wow, has it really been a week since my last post? A lot has happened; such as, the most stressful week of my life. I have had play practice everyday this week, until about ninish or later. I have had so much homework. It seems the teachers really pile it on the last week of the quarter. I don't understand why though. Oh well, it makes the time really pass quickly. I am ending the quarter with all A's. My bitch of a mom says I have to get off now. See you later.

Right now I feel like crap, but we'll get to why later. First I am gonna tell about what I did today. This morning I had to get up early on a Saturday, because I had to take the PSATs. I think I did OK. I definately think I did better than last year. I am not quite sure how well I did, last year, but it feels as if I did better this year. LOL After the test, I went to the bank to withdrawl some cash. I was able to get in and out of the bank within five mins. I met, Weeza, Melissa, AJ, Ashley, Chase, and Geoff over at Chases house. (Of course Chase was there.) We all went out to eat at Qdoba, and it was yummy. Afterwards, no one wanted to do anything with me.....Oh well, that's what happens when no one loves you. I went home to my true love....my computer, and watched Homestar Runner videos until it had to get ready for work. (Aw Wiight!) I was scheduled to work 5-11. Here's why I feel like shit. It was probably about 10:45PM, and my manager Mitch told me he had a job for me. I had to send a fax for a customer. This was a 19 page fax. Mitch told me that after each page, the fax machine would print a copy varifying that the page was sent successfully. Well, after the first two pages were sent, I picked up the "copy" that the fax machine printed out, and ripped it up. (It had personal material that the customer didn't want getting out. And by the way, the fax was being sent to the army. It was a psychological examination of a soldier.) The customer asked for the original copy back, so I went back to the fax machine, and found out that I had ripped up the original copy! I apologized 5 million times, and then the customer helped me tape it back together, and make a photo copy of it. Thank God you couldn't tell it was ripped up after we photo-copied it. Well, we finally got the fax sent, and I clocked out 26 minutes past the time I was supposed to. Well, I am feeling better because we finally got it solved, and now I am just trying to get past the horrible feeling I have. It's OK. By the way, I work 3-9 in casual dining tomorrow, and if you are lucky....I may just give you a little discount on Chinese food. *hint hint* Anyway, I have to speak at the adult forum at church tomorrow, so I better get going to bed. First, I have to plan my speech. Well, nighty night. I love you!

Well, a lot has transpired since I last posted. But before I delve into the details, I would like to formally apologize to Jennilee. I forgot to put her blog on my link list. I feel like crap now. I am so sorry Jennilee. You know I love ya though. Anyway, back to my life. Recently, some of my friends have been extremely stressed out with life, and some of my "friends" haven't been so friendly about it, and have not been doing what they should be doing. But, the coalition I am a part of has decided to take a fierce action against it. Also, I have recently strengthened an already strong relationship with one of my friends. (You know who you are.) I recently have found out who my true best friends are, and am extremely grateful for them. (Again, they know who they are.) Little Shop of Horrors is...coming along.....but not really...the band sounds great, and will be awesome by the time opening night comes. No matter what they say. The Ronettes are....well...yeah...they need a lot of work. I almost have all the choreography totally mastered. Tomorrow is payday! Yay! Finally, I have money. I would have more if some people finally paid me and Chase back for a certain project they promised they would chip in for. I have seen $10 so far, and it kinda pisses me off. Especially since they have had money since then. Well, I guess that ends the money loaning game. No chip off my shoulder. Well, I am gonna check out Homestar Runner. See ya later. I love most of you! He he. Seriously.

Today I had to work. It was so friggin' busy. Here's what happened: Around 6 o' clock, tons of people came in all at once. It was so busy. Well, the coffee wasn't hot anymore, it was just warm. So, of course, everybody wanted coffee. I had to make 3 pots of coffee. When I went to make the coffee, I found that there were three pots of cold coffee sitting under the brewers. Not only that, there was a puddle of coffee all over the table back there. AAARRRGGGHHH! The same person left a puddle last week! It better not be like that next week. Well, after cleaning it up and making the coffee, I had to bus a whole bunch of tables that piled up while I was making the coffee. After finally getting the tables bussed, I went on break. When I got off break, I had to start closing, but I was behind. I didn't get done by 9, and I left HyVee at 9:30. It took forever to get done. Well, I am tired. I am going to go to bed. Maybe I will write something more interesting tomorrow. Nighty night. I love you all!

This is the poem I wrote for AP Lit and Comp. I don't know why I am posting it, but Weeza wanted to read it. Well, tell me what you think.



A Friend

If ever there was one, then surely she.
A true best friend forever she will be.
If ever something happened, she, I’d miss.
To be a friend of mine, she plainly is.
She trusts me with her life, and me with her.
She makes the violent day, a simple blur.
She listens first, then gives me her comments.
When I am sad, she cheers with compliments.
My secrets, with her she can keep fore’er.
Through everything, she seems so debonair.
Becoming my best friend, sets her far above.
Is this just friendship, or deep down, is it love?

As you can tell, I am not poet...and I know it. LOL

Oh yes, I forgot to answer My Weeza's question on her blog: The Characteristics of a TRUE best friend. Well, I would have to say that they can be told ANYTHING, and they will give their honest opinion of it, and let you make your own decisions. You can tell them ANYTHING, and they wont tell a single living soul, not even their boyfriends or girlfriends. You can relate with them about anything, and you have multiple inside jokes with them. They love you deeply, and care about how you are doing. They support you when you are feeling down, and they will allow you to vent to them. I am feeling very sentimental right now. I am thinking about all the wonderful friends I have. I love all of you more than life itself. I would definately take a bullet for all of you that fit the description. I love you all.

I worked tonight, which sucked. On the other hand, I saw a lot of friends come into HyVee to visit me. (Even though some of them didn't come to visit me. I saw them anyway.) I will list the ones I remember: Stephee Eide, Amy Loftesness, Becca Bennet, Ebby Shanklin, Jenny Roth, Kayla Person, Megan Bott, Renae Bagguns, and Hale Becker. Oh yeah, I heard that AJ Evans and Melissa Huntsinger came in whilst I was on break. Anyway, before I went to work, I called Geoff and asked him if he wanted to go to the bank with me. I didn't want to drive all the way across town alone. After doing business at the bank, we went to Peking, and had some lunch. I took Geoff home so he could hang out with Katie. I went home, and...did laundry. I was in the cleaning and organizing mood tonight. LOL (Weeza, you know what that is like.) I did some laundry, and then I cleaned up some of the remnants from the Monster Garage that took place a couple of weeks ago. LOL I went with Stephee Eide and My Weeza to the Mall. We met at the Gap. I wanted to get a belt there. And after getting the belt, we left, and looked at costumes at the Halloween Store. Then, Weeza and Stephee went into Victoria Secret. I stayed out and waited. They both came out with bags, and claimed it was gum and mints. Their bags were a little too full for gum and mints, but go ahead. Deny, Deny, Deny! Unless they are mint gum flavored underwear! J/K LOL! Hee hee. Anyway, I went to work, and this customer gave me the nicest compliment I have ever received.
He came in and asked me how I was. I said I was great because I got to sleep in until 10:00. He said, "That isn't late, that is still kinda early." I said,"Well, compared to what I sometimes have to get up at during the week, it is late." He asked what time I get up during the week. I told him that I get up at 5-5:30 sometimes. He asked why so early. I told him that I have Executive Suite rehearsal sometimes. I also told him that I have play practice after school everyday until at least 6, and sometimes around 9 or later. He asked me what time I go to bed. I told him that I usually go to bed around midnight or as late as two sometimes. He said,"And then get up at 5?" I answered yes. He then asked me how my grades were, and I told him that I was on the honor roll.(Some of my friends were nearby at this time.) He pointed to them, and said,"Well, when do you have time for all these beautiful women. I told him that we hung out Fridays after play practice usually. (Here's the compliment.) He said, "Because of all of this, you are going to be a very successful person when you get older." I said thanks, and was happy the rest of the night.
Well, that's pretty much it right now. I will let you go. I love you all.
P.S. the belt was too big, and I am going to take it back.

Hello everyone! I thought I would post as a lot has happened lately. First and foremost, I thought I would clear any questions on the whole Angela thing. I don't plan on doing anything about it at all. And Chase, even if I did, I wouldn't just go up to her and ask her out. I would do things as friends first. Do you think I am that rash? To tell everyone the truth, Angela was just a person that I told people about because I thought it was funny. I have no intentions whatsoever to do anything about HER...but nevermind. I auditioned for All-State, and I found out yesterday, that I made it in. Big surprise. Some of my friends made it in, but others didn't, and I am sad. Some of them really deserved to make it in. I plan on going to the mall with Weeza and Stephee around 2 today, and then I work 5-11 tonight. I have to work 2-9 casual dining tomorrow. I would rather work casual dining than sit up front and deal with customers all day. Blah. Anyway, I better get going. I have to shave, I am beginning to look really like a dirty Mexican. Gotta go! I love you all!

I just finished writing my reflexive essay and my literary movement essay. I worked 2-9 at casual dining today, and I started my essays when I got home. Yeah I know, it is my own fault that I am up so late. Anyway, there is a new development in the whole girl and Sean thing. You know the girl from the September 21st post? Well, today something weird happened between us. Well, here's how it goes. I was working casual dining, and she came through my line. (I will just say who it is. Don't tell a soul though. It is Angela Rasdal.) She came through casual dining with Chinese food, and then she sat down in a table near the register. She called me over to her, and asked me to sit with her while she had her break. I couldn't believe it! Right after I had said that I wasn't going to pursue anyone, she pursues me. Well, I decided that next time I have the chance, I am going to ask her out. I hope I am getting the right signals, but you never know. Afterall, I am the King of over-analyzing things. Even Chase says I should pursue this one. Which usually doesn't happen. We'll see how things go. Talk to you later.

I have officially decided that I am going to not pursue any relationships. I am going to let love come to me. My eyes have been opened by two of my best friends whom I love dearly. I owe you two a lot. Today I had to work, and I didn't get a break. It was alright though because I didn't feel tired or I wasn't hungry. I now don't like my manager Colin as much because he was being an ass about giving me change when I was empty. He also never gave me a break. That wasn't so bad though. Anyway, I have to work Casual Dining tomorrow, so just come and visit me. My shift is 2-9. I will see you later. I love all of you. Especially the two who helped me out. Thanks again!

An update on my car: it is now fixed. I have the wagon back. We took it to a guy that goes to our church. It only cost us $250. I am glad it was fixed because Chase, Geoff, Weeza, Aaron, and I made it into the DeLorean from Back to the Future. It took us over 10 hours and cost more than $100 to create. We dressed up as people from the movie. I was Doctor Emmitt Brown, Geoff was Biff, Chase was Marty McFly, and Aaron was George McFly. Weeza didn't want to dress up because she made some cute little spirit pants. LOL (It's the Chasetifer Lowell in me coming out.) Well, I got asked many times why the hell I dyed my hair, and why I was dressed up as a scientist. Well, we ended up winning the Back to the Future Award. We won a free carwash, and we won 3 free air fresheners. It's ok, we just wanted to be put in the year book and it was hella fun to make. Well, the other day, I told someone who I liked, and it's not the person who stalked me at HyVee. It is someone that I have had a crush on for a while. Lately, I have been sounding like I change constantly, but I don't care. I know I am prolly gonna get an email from Chase or Geoff saying: who is this. I am not going to say online, but I don't know if I am gonna tell very many people. I plan on telling this person sometime soon. Anyway, that is my new development. I will post if anything changes. Love ya'll.

I have great news! I took my wagon into the shop today, and got the muffler fixed. Now it isn't loud. The only bad thing is: last night my brakes began grinding. We had the people look at it, and they said it would cost around $600 to fix. NOOOO!!! That sucks. (Like Marisa) We are gonna take the car to a guy at my church. After I got my car back, I had to go to work. When I got to work, I found out that a certain someone was working. I was happy. I worked on express with her. It was cool because a think she is super nice. She was eventually moved to a regular line, and every once and a while, I would look up, and she was staring at me. It was really cool! LOL. I have a stalker now. Anyway, I will tell you who she is if you talk to me. I don't know if I want to post it online. Anyway, when I got home I had some goulash. Yummy. Chase came in and visited me while I was working. He bought Coke. Amber came in and visited me. Weeza and Geoffrey came in and visited me. I received some great words of advice from my manager Mitch. He said,"Coke is good for you, no matter what anybody tells you." I am tired. I have to go to church tomorrow morning. I will talk to you later. I love you.

Today was a good and a bad day at the same time. The bad part is that I had a test in AP Lit and Comp and AP American History. I think i probably got a C on the AP History test, unless I got lucky like the Spanish 3 2nd Semester test last year. The AP Lit and Comp test was easy, but it took forever. Well, usually when I think I did well on a test, I actually suck. As my good friend Kayla Person says,"No one dies a virgin, life ends up screwing us all." It is so true. Well, today I went to Chamber. I enjoy it, but I would rather be in Suite. I think I have already said this, but I haven't told DK yet, because I am afraid he will get mad. I don't care, but I don't like it when teachers are mad at me. The other night, I burned 50 cds for the musical. It was the soundtrack. I am psyched to hear that Chase is interested in accompanying for Suite this year. That would be awesome. Today, we had play practice for those people who aren't good enough to get a lead for a little while. I got the pleasure of looking at Miss Laura's red eyes again. (They are read because she threw up so much her blood vessels popped) It was fun. After play practice, I helped decorate the C Wing for homecoming. It is gonna be awesome because the fine arts wing is the best decorated. We went to the mall for supper. Afterwards, we went to Drew's house for a party. His house is awesome because it is huge. He has a friggin' movie theatre in his basement! His house was awesome. Chase, you would have loved it. They had a security system in the house. We took a tour, and in his parent's room, there was a security panel that said,"Monitor basement motion." The party was in his basement, so it was kinda weird. I made a few paranoid. Well, this has got to be the longest post I have ever made, so I better stop here before I start rambling on like a freshman in speech. LOL Talk to you all later. I love you!

Well, Stephee told me to update, so I am gonna. Today we had play practice. Weeza is gonna play the piano in the band! YAY! I am happy! Now she is in the play with us. I enjoy Chamber, but I would rather be in Suite and be the best I can be. (Sounds like I am in the ARMY. LOL) We had a Suite meeting tonight, and we talked about future events. It is gonna rock! We successfully memorized our first song for the musical. It is awesome. It is gonna be an awesome musical. Well, I am trailing off. I better go. Love you all!

Today is going to seem like the exact opposite of my post from the other day, so bear with me. Today was the first day Weeza and I were around each other since we "confessed our love to each other." LOL Well, things were extremely odd when we were around each other. It felt wrong. I just wanted the old relationship with Weeza back. I talked to her today after school, and she felt the same way. I just want to have my little Weeza back. LOL We decided that, starting tomorrow, we are gonna be the way we were before this all happened. I do believe something good came of it all. We are so much closer friends now. I have told her everything. There is nothing I haven't told her now. It feels good to have a friend like that. I think the feeling I have felt for her was love, but it wasn't the kind of love I have actually depicted it as. I love Weeza, she is my best friend. I don't think I have ever loved a friend so much. I am glad to have things back the way they were. Anyway, I just thought I would let you know about something funny that just happened to me tonight. I got a call from someone with the Disney Channel. They told me that I have been referred to them by someone, and they are having auditions to be on the Disney channel here in Sioux Falls. They wanted to know if I would be interested in auditioning. I told them that I was busy with theatre at my school. They said, "So you do act?" I replied, "yes." They responded,"So...you don't want to be on tv?" I answered back,"No." They said,"Oh....oh...ok. Thank you...." When I hung up the phone I cracked up laughing. It was funny. Anyway, I am gonna go eat homemade macaroni and cheese. YUMMY!

Well, now that I have some spare time...I will post in my blog. A lot of things have happened to me lately. Some good, some bad. Mostly good though. Well, my computer died and we got another computer! YAY! And because I am a geek, I will post the specs. It is a 2.6gHz pentium 4 computer. It has 512MB of RAM, and and 80GB hard drive. It has and integrated graphics card, but that can be upgraded. I also enjoy the flat screen monitor. Yesterday, I found out some things that I was very happy to find out. I hadn't told anyone before two days ago, but I seem to have liked my friend, Weeza, for a long time. I told someone, and she told one other person. Now everyone knows. Even Weeza. Well, everything went well, and we went to the President's Bowl. Things were good at first, but then Drew and TJ were there. Well, as everybody knows, Weeza is a very friendly person. She began flirting with both of them...In front of me. At first, I thought I could handle it, since I have handled it for about a year now, but since I knew she knew that she liked me, it was extremely hard. I eventually asked Ebony if she wanted to leave. She said that she did. I left, feeling extremely depressed. I can't explain how I felt. I felt like my heart was ripped in half. Heidi asked me why I was leaving. I told her that I could bare to watch the flirting, so I left. I talked with Ebony the entire time about Louisa, and it didn't change things. When I got home, I called Geoff. Geoff said that he got off the phone with Weeza right before I called him, and she was crying. I found out that Heidi told Weeza why I left. Weeza felt bad because she doesn't want to hurt me. We are best friends. I ended up calling her, and we talked about it. Since she doesn't want to hurt me, she wants to wait and figure out if her feelings are genuine. I support her totally,and I believe it is for the best. All it takes is time right now. I think I may take to writing poetry. Who knows, but I need a way to express my feelings. Well, my mind is racing, so I better go collect my thoughts. Until later.

Hello everybody! Sorry I haven't updated, but I have been very busy. I am not going to tell you anything , but I am going to say that there have been some major things going on lately. I will post as soon as I can.

I have noticed, lately, that a lot of my blogs start of with, "Well,......" I am going to mix it up today. I don't want to write the same thing everyday. That would make it hella boring. Ergo, I will start it a different way.

Since this is a blog and I am supposed to post about my life, I will talk about my day. I woke up at 12:30, and I decided to start my AP American History homework. I was assigned to take notes on 18 pages, due Tuesday. I found out it is very long and tedious. I had a haircut at 3:00PM. I left my house and arrived on time. I asked her to cut it so that I still have my long length, but I wanted it shaped up. I didn't want to look like a hairy beast anymore. She cut it way too short. I hate it! She does it everytime. Next time, I am going to tell her to get it right. Afterwards, I went to HyVee and got my schedule, along with some cash and Chinese food. YUMMY! I came home and my parents were gone! They left for camping today, and wont be home until Monday. I wont miss them. I did some more AP American History stuff, and I made absolutely no progress. Chase instant messaged me, and I went and picked him up in the Expedition to go to LifeLight. Whilst I was at his humble cottage, he had company for his brother's birthday. I said happy birthday to him, and I had a piece of cake. I ended up having to pick up Katie and Geoff, which I didn't mind since I was driving a nicer car. We went to LifeLight, and ate supper. I was a litte bored at first, but I soon became entertained by the music. For some reason, they kept screaming "I am talking about China." into the microphone. I was a little confused. Well, we left, and I took Geoffrey and Katie home. Chase came over to my house, and is spending the night. In fact, he is crapped out on my couch right now. I tucked him in. Holy shit! I just looked at the clock and it said 4:00AM! I better get to sleep soon. We have to meet at my church at noon. I might sleep in my parent's room, so that I could use the alarm clock. Anyway, that is my life. I still have no idea when I am going to do my AP American History homework. I am so confused. Well, I will talk to you all later.

Well, yesterday went well. I went to talk to Mrs. Pesicka, the new IMPROV person, and she wasn't in. So, I talked to the person that is there when she isn't. She told me we might not have IMPROV this year. I was a litte mad, but she told me to to talk to Mrs. Pesicka today to find out for sure. I really want to have IMPROV, even though I don't know if I can handle the extra load. It will be fun. I haven't even started my AP History notes yet. They are due on Tuesday, so it will be a long weekend. I will try to get them done tonight. I am so tired lately. I hope it is just the shock of going to school now, and not what it will be like all year. It will be fun, regardless. Well, I better get going, I want to stop and get a latte from Oscars. Talk to ya at a later date.

Well, I have successfully made it through the first two days of school, but not without homework...and lots of it. I had a whole bunch of homework in AP U.S. History, but it will be easy....All I have to do is take notes over 20 pages of reading....I already know that I hate my AP Lit. and Comp. teacher, Mrs. Benz. She is so stupid. Oh well, I have a bunch of friends in that class. I have homework on that due tomorrow. It will be fun because I get to make up what career I will be going into and write a resume and cover letter as if I had just graduated from college. I already stayed up later than I should have last night. I had to take a practice AP Exam. It is hella hard. I think I can eventually get this stuff down. I don't really enjoy taking hour long tests, but I will make and exception. This year, I believe, is going to be fun, yet challenging. I am always up for a good challenge. I have to go pick Geoff up and go to school now. See ya later.

Well, today went...well. I have some really good teachers, and I also have some teachers who are....yeah.....you know. I will tell you what I think of my classes. Newspaper is going to be cool, but there are some people who are just there to get an english credit. Oh well, Teddy said she was going to beat them up. YAY! I have algebra 2 in the E Wing. I always get screwed with my math class. Last year, I had Mr. Holmstrom, and it was the last room in the E Wing. This year, it is in the middle of the Special Education wing. SPASE PEEPOLE! AP American History is going to be fun. My teacher loves history, and she sounds like a nice lady. Except I will have a lot of notes to do. Oh well. I have a lunch period this year. And my aunt is a lunch lady! Anyway, I wasn't supposed to have a lunch period. They were going to switch Exec. Suite and Exec. Chamber around so that I could be in both and attend everyday. But, I found out that they were going to try to "share me." I have to alternate what ensemble I go to. (ie. Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I go to Suite, and Tuesday and Thursday I have Chamber.) I don't like the idea of sharing. OH well, it is worth a try. I think I will enjoy both. Stiffy Cheese is doing that too. I don't want to talk about anymore classes. I will update more later.

Insomnia sucks. Today school starts, and I got like 3 hours of sleep. I am also done getting ready. Today will be the only day of the year that I am early for school. I don't know if I can handle getting up this early. What am I going to do when Ben and Brady's Get Down, Get Down to the 3rd Degree Celsius....And Rising starts. 6:30AM is awfully early to arrive at school. I am giving Geoff a ride to school this year. I plan on getting him and going early today, so that I may find my classes before the time comes for me to have to go to them. I left out some information on my previous blogs, but I "got high." "Getting high," is a code word. I don' t think I am going to do anything else about it though. I did "get high," but I found out some new information that has swayed my decision. Ask me, and I may tell you what I am talking about. I am going to tell Geoffrey in the car, on the way to school today. Well, I have to take a shat, and then I am going to pick up cooter face. TTYL.

Well, today I went with Geoff, at about 10, to help Mr. Pope to organize for the school year. Chase was there when we arrived. At 12:30, Geoff's grandpa came to pick him up for lunch. Geoff asked his grandpa if I could come too. He said, "Sure." I met them at HuHot, and he ended up paying for me! He's such a nice guy. Afterwards, we went to the hotel his grandpa was staying at, and went swimming. Then I met his grandma, and we looked at the Belize pictures. I am bored right now, so if anybody wants to do anything, call me! My number is 334-6451. I should be home. Someone, rescue me!

A lot has happened lately. Ben Waldner was involved in a jet-ski accident. We learned about this at the Concert Choir Retreat, which was fun. Ben was in the hospital for 2 weeks, and just recently, has passed away. The funeral was today, and it was so touching to see all the people there to support the family. I cried a lot over Ben's death, but now he is in Heaven with Jesus.
As Matthew 6:19-21 says:
"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on Earth; where moss and rust consume, and where thieves break in and steal. But, store up for yourselves treasures in Heaven, where neither moss nor rust consumes, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

Ben is now enjoying his treasure that he has been waiting for. He is not suffering anymore pain, and is now at the right-hand of the father. Be happy for Ben that he is now in paradise, and just keep your heart well with God, so one day, you can visit Ben in God's glory.

Today I got my schedule for school. Here is the first semester's schedule:
Period 1: Newspaper w/ Powers
Period 2: Algebra 2 w/ Resar
Period 3: AP American History w/ Leistra
Period 4: Executive Suite/Executive Chamber
Period 5: Concert Choir w/ DK
Period 6: Biology w/ Becker
Period 7: AP Lit and Comp w/ Benz

Here is the second semester's schedule:
Period 1: Newspaper w/ Powers
Period 2: AP Lit and Comp w/ Benz
Period 3: Algebra 2 w/ Resar
Period 4: Executive Suite/Executive Chamber
Period 5: Concert Choir w/ DK
Period 6: AP American History w/ Leistra
Period 7: Biology w/ Becker

If you have any classes with me, let me know. So far, the classes I don't know anyone in, are AP American History and Biology.

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I went camping this weekend with my parents and my brother. I hated it. It was the worst weekend of my entire summer. I did a whole bunch of stuff for them just so we could get out of town sooner. I tried to help my dad hook the boat up to the back of the trailer, but he criticized me, as usual. I got so pissed off that I learned a new four-lettered word you should never say to you parents. He told me I couldn't touch my car for one week. Even to go to work. I think they kinda forgot about what they said. I will find out tomorrow morning. If my mom leaves me a note saying I can't go anywhere, then I wont be able to drive to work. If there is no note, I can drive to work. I may have to ride my bike to work tomorrow, but I will probably either get a ride from my friend Chase, or drive my car anyway. They think I lost my keys. I found them when we got home from camping. I have them in my room. I am pissed that I missed the show choir party. I heard it was fun, but that not many people showed up. I am happy. My friend, Geoff has a job interview tomorrow. I will be psyched if he gets the job. Then he can start paying back his tab. I didn't forget about the $6, Geoff. Anyway, I am going to go upstairs and play RollerCoaster Tycoon. I will update regularly.

Well, Chase told me to update my blog, so here I am, doing it. The family and I leave today to go camping. BLAH. I hate camping with them. We usually end up fighting. I don't want to go! Someone come and kidnap me before it is too late. Anyway, I am scheduled for 20 hours next week. Yay! (Seriously) I haven't had much of a chance to work this summer, so now I have 2 weeks of work. Oh well. This morning I woke up early (9). I went to the grocery store with a blank check from mom. I bought the groceries for the camping trip. Afterwards, I went home and unloaded the groceries and then took my brother's bike to Scheels to get the tire fixed. Finally, we arrived at home, where I could do more work while my lazy, fat-assed brother did nothing. I did some laundry, and then spent the rest of the afternoon convincing my brother to wash 2 fucking pizza pans. Well, my dad got home and asked me if I wanted to go with him to get the boat. I told him I had to do some work at home. My brother went instead. When he got home, he showed off the Coke dad bought him. He did nothing all day today, and got rewarded for it! You know what!! Life sucks. **Tries to think of happy thoughts** There is some good news in my life. My mom told me to start looking at new computers. Yay! Finally, Mom is thinking about getting rid of our computer of almost 6 years! You know what is pathetic? My friend Josh, from Lincoln, has gotten computers about the same speed as mine for free. That is sad. My mom is being a bitch and telling me to do more work. My brother is going to just do nothing. I better go now. I do have some stuff to do. See ya when I get back from Hell. Enjoy the Show Choir Party for me.

It's been a long time since I have posted. A lot has happened. I went to Atlanta, GA, as most of you have heard. While I was in Georgia, we went to the ocean, and I swam in the ocean for the first time. It was awesome...except for the salt in the eyes. I also had the privilage of singing in a choir in the Georgia Dome in front of 25,000 people. It was awesome. We rehearsed for three days, for two hours a day. We sounded 20 times better than concert choir. I will never forget that experience. After I got back from Atlanta, I found out that Smaki is going out with someone. It really didn't hurt at all because of the fact that I kinda forgot about her while in Atlanta. We are just gonna stay friends. It's cool with me. Anyway, I just thought I would update you. There was probably more that happened, but I don't remember. OH YEAH! I forgot to tell you. I turned 17 on July 21st. Well, that's it. I will try to update more often now.

Happy days are here again! I am so happy! Today I took my car to the shop to get the fuel filter changed. I found out that it didn't get fixed because the fuel filter was rusted on. Then I went over to Rashel's house and watched movies. Tonight, Chase asked Rashel out and she said yes. I was so happy for him. But, right before I left, I asked Smaki out, and she said yes! I am happy. I could dance. We plan on all going out together on a group date. I am looking forward to it. I better get some hours in at work first, so I can have some cash. I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight I could jump for joy! Yay!

A lot has happened lately. We finished the running of Dirty Work in High Places. It was awesome. If you went, thank you very much. If you didn't go, I have one thing to say to you: Jesus doesn't love you anymore. I don't necessary know the exact order these event occur, but I bought the 5th Harry Potter Book the day it came out, and I finished it in 2 days. I am so proud of myself! So, in honor of Harry Potter, I put the Harry Potter theme on my site. Enjoy! At the cast party, I had so much fun. I met a new "friend," and I hope to become closer friends with this person. I may even ask her out. Ask me about who it is. Hee hee hee. On the way home from the cast party I was stuck at an intersection and an Indian came up to my car and knocked on the window. I was freaked out and I locked all my doors. The guy said his car was towed and wanted to know where 12th street was. I told him and then he asked if I would take him. I lied and told him I couldn't because it was after curfew and it was out of the way. Anyway, he left and then I went home. It was really weird. Tomorrow I am going to Rashel's movie party at 3. I invited my new "friend" and she is coming. I am so happy. I think I may ask her out tomorrow. I'll keep you updated.

It's been a while since I posted. I have been very busy....and very grounded. The play is going well. Tonight is closing night, and the cast party. Mom, Dad, and Ian are going to my grandma and grandpa's 50th wedding anniversary party. I am going to go get something to eat. Hopefully I will remember what has gone on since I posted?

My parents came home from camping tonight. Damn it! It is so peaceful around the house when they aren't here. Oh well. Chase leaves for St. Louis tomorrow to check out a college. I am going to be taking his brother, Ben to play practice while he is gone. Today consisted mainly of cleaning, and doing absolutely nothing. I finished downloading Worms Armageddon. I can't believe I finished the download in less than a week. It took 2 days! Behold the power of the computer!

Geoff spent the night last night. Last night, I watched The Ring for the first time. It is a freaking scary movie. I was so scared. That is why I asked Geoff to spend the night. I decided to take my mind off of the scary movie by watching My Fair Lady. It brought back fond memories. *pauses for a moment of silence* Today I had to wake up earlier because I had to play bells at a fellow bell choir member's wedding. The piano player really sucks. He doesn't know how to keep time, and follow direction. Ergo, we got a little off at times. Oh well. After that, we went to Geoff's house so he could get his allowance. He had to mow before he got the money. While mowing, he discovered a rabbit nest. He caught two of the little bunnies. They were so cute. I named one of them Cinderblock because it kept jumping out of Geoff's hands on to the pavement. It was a little retarded. After getting the money, we felt a little hungry, so we went to the mall and had Chinese at the China Pantry. It was tasty. I had orange chicken and black pepper chicken. Yummy! Then, we went to Culver's to see Ebony, but she wasn't there. She was on break. We decided to go shopping a little. We went to Hot Topic, and I bought 3 pins. Yeah! I couldn't find the "I Love Nerds" pin, but I found some others that will replace the loss. After purchasing our things, we went to see Ebony. Geoffrey ended up purchasing a ring at Hot Topic, and then he bought a custard at Culvers. Also, he left his newly-purchased ring on the counter, and we went home. After we got home, we called Chase and invited him over. We watched TV w/ him, and then he went to work. We decided to grill hamburgers for supper. Yummy. After trying to light the damn grill for 15 minutes, we finally got it started. I made the hamburgers, and Geoff prepared the condiments. The burgers were very yummy. We decided to go get Geoff's ring at Culvers. When we got there, Ebony was getting off in 10 minutes. We decided to walk around and then go back and see her. We walked out into the parking lot together. After leaving the mall, we went to HyVee to pay Chase a visit. "Randi" was there. Geoff kept threatening Chase saying he was going to go talk to her. We ended up going and checking my schedule. The other day, Chase and I discovered sticky notes on our time cards that said, "Please see me ASAP. Thanks, Lindsey." We were freaked out because we had called in sick for the RenFest, and we thought we got caught. Today, we realized, that we may be getting a raise. That would be cool. I sure could use a raise. I discovered a new drink. It is called, "Rockstar Energy Drink." It is very tasty, and has a lot of caffeine. We bought two of them, and then on the way out of HyVee, we opened them up and took a drink. We loved them, so we went back in and bought 4 more. Chase is going to come over when he is done working. He gets off at 11. We plan to sleep in tomorrow. I am going to feed him this highly caffeinated drink. What I find funny about the drink is: on the side it says,"NOT RECOMMENDED FOR CHILDREN OR THOSE SENSITIVE TO CAFFEINE." That makes me wonder...why didn't I discover this earlier?!?

Well, not much has happened lately. My parents have let me home, yet again, because they went camping. I would have gone camping, but I had play practice, and a wedding to go to. I don't really want to go, but I have to play bells. We are playing Pachelbel's Cannon in D. It is a fun song to play, but some of the people in the group can't play fast enough. I spent the night at Chase's house last night, because I didn't want to risk driving home after 11. If I would have gotten pulled over, I would spend the rest of the weekend in JDC. I don't think that would be a good thing. Last night, Geoff, Chase, and I went to Walmart, and bought Nicholas's gift. I think he will like it. It took not even 5 minutes to pick, because I knew Nicholas would love it. Today, we start wearing all of our costumes during rehearsals. I don't want to, but I have to. I will be sweating so much, because my costume is a tux. I have like 4 layers. On Wednesday, I got my hair cut. They took off like 4 inches. That is a lot of hair. I loved my hair...but....anything for the betterment of the play. By the way, if you read this, Nicholas....HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I saw the person I like the other day. It was kinda nice. I haven't seen her since school, but I have been instant messaging her. It was nice....Anway, if you beg me enough, I might tell you who she is. OOOOHHH! I bought a pattern for my Renaissance costume yesterday. It will be soo cool, but the material I want for the vest, costs $26.14 per yard. I don't have that kind of cash. I will be paying Nicholas to make it for me. I am gonna go get Chase's ass out of bed now.

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Had play practice again today. It was the first day we had to be off book for the second act. I did pretty well, even though there were some spots that I need to work on. It wont be a problem. My mom has been very bitchy lately. She thinks that I need to check in all the time. It is not necessary. I will eventually, but not right after play practice. The reason I don't like checking in is: when I do check in, she tells me I can't do it. She doesn't let me do anything. Plus, she acts as though I love being home, and spending time with the family. Personally, I hate being at home, because all they do is yell at me. She needs to give me more freedom. This morning I woke up, and found out that she had a huge list of things for me to do, and I don't have the time to do any of them. I have play for five hours during the day. I can't wait for this weekend, they are going to be gone camping, and I get the house all to myself. I love it. It is a vacation from my stupid brother, and all the bitching from mom. Thanks for listening to me bitch about my crappy home life. Have a nice day.

I love the Renaissance Festival. It is so fun. Today and yesterday, I sang at the 2nd Annual Siouxland Renaissance Festival. It was pretty cool. Next year, I hope to participate a lot more. Maybe get my own costume, and become a part of the court. That would be so cool. It would be extremely fun. I was scheduled to work today, but I became "sick." I had pneumonia, and wasn't able to go to work. What a shame. Oh well. I have play practice again tomorrow, and I need my rest. I bid thee farewell.

We finished the movie, and it was awesome! I suggest that you watch The Pianist. It is a great movie. Anyway, we had play practice again today, and we did the choreography for the songs. I have our song pretty much down, so I am not too worried. One thing that I am not sure I can do, is go off book for Act 1 tomorrow. I can probably do it, but when we have to go off book for Act 2, it may be a different story. We'll see how goes.

AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH! I feel like going on a killing rampage...well, maybe not a killing rampage, but I feel angry. Chase and I rented the movie, The Pianist, and we got half way through, and it was all scratched. It sucked. Tomorrow, we are going to take it back and get our money back. We had to stop it early. I am mad. If I continue typing, I think I will start talking like a drunken sailor.

Not much is new today, but I went home, and my cousin, Andy was ripping up the ceiling in the basement. We are starting the remodeling! Yeah! I can't wait until it is done. The house will be such a mess until then though, because the dust will come through the vents. Oh well. I told everybody in Executive Suite, that I would have a show choir party when it is done. We have play practice today, and I don't have the Groucho Marx voice down yet, but I will try my best. Who knows, maybe I will get it when I am up on stage?

It is day 3 of my stay at the Kramer household. Chase went to work today, so Ben and I are just gonna hang out. We'll play a little computer, then maybe some XBox. Before Chase left, I mowed the lawn for Donna. She is sick. She went to the doctor yesterday, and they said she had pneumonia. I feel so bad. Chase's grandma came over, and made some food. Yummy. Today should be quite interesting. We'll see how it goes.

Well, I have been living at Chase's house for 2 full days now, and they haven't kicked me out yet. I introduced him to Moulin Rouge, which he thought was a great movie.
At play, we re-auditioned for some parts, and I got to be Trickster! Now, I am in a posse of three bad guys. There is also a chance that I will be playing Grandpa. I have the voice and actions down for that as well. We'll see what happens. It is awesome. Ben (Chase's brother), Brian Miller, and I are portraying their personalities as the Marx Brothers. I am the leader of the three, and I have to learn to talk like Groucho, which hasn't been going the best. I have his actions and walk down. It is fun. It is making this an even more enjoyable experience. I am so happy I don't have Renaissance Festival practice tomorrow. I get to sleep in. Yeah!!!

Today at play practice they picked the leading roles, and I am not one of them...Thank God! I don't think I could handle all the memorization required for it. I really wanted to be Trickster, but I didn't get it. I am kinda disappointed because so far, I don't have a part. The only parts left are the crappy ones. I really really wanted Trickster. Who knows, maybe someone will die?
I am at work right now, and there is a new manager. He is so stupid. His name is Adam, and he doesn't know what the hell he is doing. I have been moved to so many new registers today. I hope he ends up getting fired, because if I were the store director, I would be embarrassed to have him managing my employees. Anyway, I better get going because I have to finish my drinkable soup. Yeah! Drinkable soup!

Today Geoff and I began our exercising schedule. We went for a 2 hr walk at 8am. It went well, we did some talking. Afterwards, we went to Katie Rose's house for lunch/breakfast. We ate SPAM sandwiches. (Geoff had a grilled cheese.) We went for a walk, and talked. It was fun. Tomorrow the play starts. I guess we are doing: "Dirty Work In High Places." I am looking forward to it, but I have to leave early for a dentist appointment. Blah. I am tired. I don't know if I can handle getting up so early just to go walking. Is it worth staying fat for? I'll try it. I have to work tonight. Oh well it is only a six hour shift. 6-10. I need to get gas before I go though. I think I can make it.

Boredom. Boredom is an interesting thing. What is the cure to boredom? No one knows. Hopefully today's boredom level changes. I hate being grounded.

All my teachers have updated my grades for what I got on semester tests. I got a's in all of them except English and Speech. I aced my geometry semester test. I almost died when I saw 100% next to it. Overall, I am glad to say that I passed with all a's and one b. That b was, of course, in Mrs. Votaw's class. I reached my goal. Next year I was planning on taking programming, but I was called down to the office, and they said that it was during Executive Suite and Executive Chamber, and I told them that music was too important to me, so I decided to take Newspaper instead. Newspaper will be my slack class for next year. I am taking 2 AP classes next year. I am taking AP Literature and Composition and I am taking AP American History. It is going to be a tough year, but I am psyched. I will probably have some classes with friends next year. Maybe I will meet some new geeks?

Today I worked from 7am to 3pm. It sucked. You would think that since school is out, I wouldn't have to wake up early in the morning. On Tuesday, the play starts, so I should be quiet busy from now until the end of June. Recently, I saw the Matrix Reloaded, which was awesome. Our computer is upstairs today because my dad is remodeling our basement. I asked Chase Kramer to come over and help me carry the computer desk up the stairs. It wouldn't fit through the door at the top of the stairs, so we had to raise it vertically. We finally got everything set up, and are now able to go online again. Tomorrow, is the day for graduations. I have to sing at the RHS graduation, but I am not looking forward to it. I went and hung out with Chase, Ebony, and Geoffrey. Geoffrey went too far when he got taco sauce all over my clothes. I left him at some street corner, and drove around to cool off. I found out some bad news today, and I was so shocked. I couldn't believe what I heard. I just hope things go well.