I just finished writing my reflexive essay and my literary movement essay. I worked 2-9 at casual dining today, and I started my essays when I got home. Yeah I know, it is my own fault that I am up so late. Anyway, there is a new development in the whole girl and Sean thing. You know the girl from the September 21st post? Well, today something weird happened between us. Well, here's how it goes. I was working casual dining, and she came through my line. (I will just say who it is. Don't tell a soul though. It is Angela Rasdal.) She came through casual dining with Chinese food, and then she sat down in a table near the register. She called me over to her, and asked me to sit with her while she had her break. I couldn't believe it! Right after I had said that I wasn't going to pursue anyone, she pursues me. Well, I decided that next time I have the chance, I am going to ask her out. I hope I am getting the right signals, but you never know. Afterall, I am the King of over-analyzing things. Even Chase says I should pursue this one. Which usually doesn't happen. We'll see how things go. Talk to you later.

I have officially decided that I am going to not pursue any relationships. I am going to let love come to me. My eyes have been opened by two of my best friends whom I love dearly. I owe you two a lot. Today I had to work, and I didn't get a break. It was alright though because I didn't feel tired or I wasn't hungry. I now don't like my manager Colin as much because he was being an ass about giving me change when I was empty. He also never gave me a break. That wasn't so bad though. Anyway, I have to work Casual Dining tomorrow, so just come and visit me. My shift is 2-9. I will see you later. I love all of you. Especially the two who helped me out. Thanks again!

An update on my car: it is now fixed. I have the wagon back. We took it to a guy that goes to our church. It only cost us $250. I am glad it was fixed because Chase, Geoff, Weeza, Aaron, and I made it into the DeLorean from Back to the Future. It took us over 10 hours and cost more than $100 to create. We dressed up as people from the movie. I was Doctor Emmitt Brown, Geoff was Biff, Chase was Marty McFly, and Aaron was George McFly. Weeza didn't want to dress up because she made some cute little spirit pants. LOL (It's the Chasetifer Lowell in me coming out.) Well, I got asked many times why the hell I dyed my hair, and why I was dressed up as a scientist. Well, we ended up winning the Back to the Future Award. We won a free carwash, and we won 3 free air fresheners. It's ok, we just wanted to be put in the year book and it was hella fun to make. Well, the other day, I told someone who I liked, and it's not the person who stalked me at HyVee. It is someone that I have had a crush on for a while. Lately, I have been sounding like I change constantly, but I don't care. I know I am prolly gonna get an email from Chase or Geoff saying: who is this. I am not going to say online, but I don't know if I am gonna tell very many people. I plan on telling this person sometime soon. Anyway, that is my new development. I will post if anything changes. Love ya'll.

I have great news! I took my wagon into the shop today, and got the muffler fixed. Now it isn't loud. The only bad thing is: last night my brakes began grinding. We had the people look at it, and they said it would cost around $600 to fix. NOOOO!!! That sucks. (Like Marisa) We are gonna take the car to a guy at my church. After I got my car back, I had to go to work. When I got to work, I found out that a certain someone was working. I was happy. I worked on express with her. It was cool because a think she is super nice. She was eventually moved to a regular line, and every once and a while, I would look up, and she was staring at me. It was really cool! LOL. I have a stalker now. Anyway, I will tell you who she is if you talk to me. I don't know if I want to post it online. Anyway, when I got home I had some goulash. Yummy. Chase came in and visited me while I was working. He bought Coke. Amber came in and visited me. Weeza and Geoffrey came in and visited me. I received some great words of advice from my manager Mitch. He said,"Coke is good for you, no matter what anybody tells you." I am tired. I have to go to church tomorrow morning. I will talk to you later. I love you.

Today was a good and a bad day at the same time. The bad part is that I had a test in AP Lit and Comp and AP American History. I think i probably got a C on the AP History test, unless I got lucky like the Spanish 3 2nd Semester test last year. The AP Lit and Comp test was easy, but it took forever. Well, usually when I think I did well on a test, I actually suck. As my good friend Kayla Person says,"No one dies a virgin, life ends up screwing us all." It is so true. Well, today I went to Chamber. I enjoy it, but I would rather be in Suite. I think I have already said this, but I haven't told DK yet, because I am afraid he will get mad. I don't care, but I don't like it when teachers are mad at me. The other night, I burned 50 cds for the musical. It was the soundtrack. I am psyched to hear that Chase is interested in accompanying for Suite this year. That would be awesome. Today, we had play practice for those people who aren't good enough to get a lead for a little while. I got the pleasure of looking at Miss Laura's red eyes again. (They are read because she threw up so much her blood vessels popped) It was fun. After play practice, I helped decorate the C Wing for homecoming. It is gonna be awesome because the fine arts wing is the best decorated. We went to the mall for supper. Afterwards, we went to Drew's house for a party. His house is awesome because it is huge. He has a friggin' movie theatre in his basement! His house was awesome. Chase, you would have loved it. They had a security system in the house. We took a tour, and in his parent's room, there was a security panel that said,"Monitor basement motion." The party was in his basement, so it was kinda weird. I made a few paranoid. Well, this has got to be the longest post I have ever made, so I better stop here before I start rambling on like a freshman in speech. LOL Talk to you all later. I love you!

Well, Stephee told me to update, so I am gonna. Today we had play practice. Weeza is gonna play the piano in the band! YAY! I am happy! Now she is in the play with us. I enjoy Chamber, but I would rather be in Suite and be the best I can be. (Sounds like I am in the ARMY. LOL) We had a Suite meeting tonight, and we talked about future events. It is gonna rock! We successfully memorized our first song for the musical. It is awesome. It is gonna be an awesome musical. Well, I am trailing off. I better go. Love you all!

Today is going to seem like the exact opposite of my post from the other day, so bear with me. Today was the first day Weeza and I were around each other since we "confessed our love to each other." LOL Well, things were extremely odd when we were around each other. It felt wrong. I just wanted the old relationship with Weeza back. I talked to her today after school, and she felt the same way. I just want to have my little Weeza back. LOL We decided that, starting tomorrow, we are gonna be the way we were before this all happened. I do believe something good came of it all. We are so much closer friends now. I have told her everything. There is nothing I haven't told her now. It feels good to have a friend like that. I think the feeling I have felt for her was love, but it wasn't the kind of love I have actually depicted it as. I love Weeza, she is my best friend. I don't think I have ever loved a friend so much. I am glad to have things back the way they were. Anyway, I just thought I would let you know about something funny that just happened to me tonight. I got a call from someone with the Disney Channel. They told me that I have been referred to them by someone, and they are having auditions to be on the Disney channel here in Sioux Falls. They wanted to know if I would be interested in auditioning. I told them that I was busy with theatre at my school. They said, "So you do act?" I replied, "yes." They responded,"So...you don't want to be on tv?" I answered back,"No." They said,"Oh....oh...ok. Thank you...." When I hung up the phone I cracked up laughing. It was funny. Anyway, I am gonna go eat homemade macaroni and cheese. YUMMY!

Well, now that I have some spare time...I will post in my blog. A lot of things have happened to me lately. Some good, some bad. Mostly good though. Well, my computer died and we got another computer! YAY! And because I am a geek, I will post the specs. It is a 2.6gHz pentium 4 computer. It has 512MB of RAM, and and 80GB hard drive. It has and integrated graphics card, but that can be upgraded. I also enjoy the flat screen monitor. Yesterday, I found out some things that I was very happy to find out. I hadn't told anyone before two days ago, but I seem to have liked my friend, Weeza, for a long time. I told someone, and she told one other person. Now everyone knows. Even Weeza. Well, everything went well, and we went to the President's Bowl. Things were good at first, but then Drew and TJ were there. Well, as everybody knows, Weeza is a very friendly person. She began flirting with both of them...In front of me. At first, I thought I could handle it, since I have handled it for about a year now, but since I knew she knew that she liked me, it was extremely hard. I eventually asked Ebony if she wanted to leave. She said that she did. I left, feeling extremely depressed. I can't explain how I felt. I felt like my heart was ripped in half. Heidi asked me why I was leaving. I told her that I could bare to watch the flirting, so I left. I talked with Ebony the entire time about Louisa, and it didn't change things. When I got home, I called Geoff. Geoff said that he got off the phone with Weeza right before I called him, and she was crying. I found out that Heidi told Weeza why I left. Weeza felt bad because she doesn't want to hurt me. We are best friends. I ended up calling her, and we talked about it. Since she doesn't want to hurt me, she wants to wait and figure out if her feelings are genuine. I support her totally,and I believe it is for the best. All it takes is time right now. I think I may take to writing poetry. Who knows, but I need a way to express my feelings. Well, my mind is racing, so I better go collect my thoughts. Until later.

Hello everybody! Sorry I haven't updated, but I have been very busy. I am not going to tell you anything , but I am going to say that there have been some major things going on lately. I will post as soon as I can.